A lot of people walked out on me. You can say that people are easily drawn to me, but after a while, i either have to be moved or they have to leave. it sucks because I always wonder if anyone will actually stay.
When it comes down to it, I wonder if i’ll ever be able to handle a relationship seeing as how people just fall out of my life. it’s quite depressing to think about. I try not to though, i try to look at my life and focus on all the good things that are going on. but my heart still wishes that I could find someone that will stay and share these moments of happiness with me.
a hopeless romantic with a realistic view on life. a man that holds so much knowledge and can teach people to do, but can’t do himself. i feel like everything about my personality is never completed.
but maybe that’s a good thing. maybe striving to be a better person constantly will lead me to the dreams that i want to live. but it’s depressing because at this point..i have so much going for me, that i still feel a little empty.
and yet i can never take the steps necessary to find some one to fill that void. you can say i’m young and i have a lot of years ahead of me, but i been though a lot. forced to be at least 20 years ahead of my time mentally; how i can have an answer to every problem i don’t know. and yet i can’t follow my own shit.
i fucking hate this shit, but at the same time i have to embrace it.
A.B.E
